Life is hard.

Not a very cheery reintroduction to my blog, but this is my honest reality right now.  Everyone I know is going through something that is really challenging.  For some it is financial strains, some it is their marriage, some it is the unknown future, some it is health problems, and so on and so on.   Of course we were never promised an easy life, and darn it, we were never even promised a happy life.  Being one who clings to the Lord and still finds this life challenging, I can't wrap my mind around how someone who doesn't know the Lord even makes it one day.  Honestly, without Him, I would be a flipping mess.  I heard someone say God is less concerned with our happiness and more concerned about accomplishing His will.  My heart can say, "Yes, Lord, I am yours....do with me what you will to advance the Kingdom."  However, when life throws me a curve ball, I am much more concerned with how it affects MY comfort than how the Lord may be using the current situation.  Don't even get me started on my attitude during hard times.  UGGHH, i so want to pass this test called life.  I want to not think the worst of most people.  Did you know I do that?  I want to be happy when someone else is is blessed, instead of being jealous.  I want to only rely on the Lord, so that when people let me down, I'm not devastated.  I want to be an overcomer.  I know I have come a long way, but just when I  think I've "arrived" here comes another test.  Life is hard.  I need more of the one who made.  I need to be transformed.